Dostoyevsky- a different path

“You sensed that you should be following a different path, a more ambitious one, you felt that you were destined for other things but you had no idea how to achieve them and in your misery you began to hate everything around you.”

Fyodor Dostoyevsky has been a long-time favorite author of mine. An unbelievably sad and troubled individual who persisted in his craft throughout everything he faced. I’ve had this quote written in my journal for a while and absolutely adore it. It provides a sense of comfort. I grew up not really knowing what I would do with my life until I hit 20 years old. And still, I know that this feeling of dissatisfaction will follow me to the ends of the earth, was I destined for something else or maybe something more? Does destiny really play as much of a role as people think it does? Dostoyevsky hits close to the heart in every line he writes; I still have no idea how to achieve any of the goals I have. I tend to be a highly ambitious person but often fall victim to the spiral of misery and loss of direction. It can be easier to hate all that is around me than it is to dig myself out of a hole of my own making. Even I do not know what I will do next at any given point in time. Still, I hope for peace, and I hope for more.